I'm Blessed

I've been looking at those in my life who have a negative effect on me and who will lead me down an unrighteous path, those that will make me sin when I know better than to sin. I turn now my cheek from those that try to tempt me but will not call me to their ways of living negatively, sinfully, ungodly and unrighteous. Through my process in the RCIA classes and the calling that the catholic church has on me is powerful, beautiful, blessing because God the righteous has set f...orth me on this ship to set sail on these seas and to explore new land, new things, meet new people, become one with the righteous not one with the unrighteous. I'm surrounding my new self with those that seek the same, believe in the same and live in the same as I do. I want to be a Believer not a Doubter. I want to be Righteous not Unrighteous, I don't want to feel Ashamed, I want to feel Proud. I don't want to be a Sinner, I want to be a Winner. I don't want to be Led, I want to Lead. I have found a new version of myself that I never though I would find but truly I tell you I have and I am. With those that are in my way I'm pushing to the side because they will not help me but shame me and break me and make me fail, when I want to be put together like glue, I want to be hopeful, and be a winner. God created man from love and so I love, Jesus told his 12 disciples go out into the world share what I've taught you so that you can teach it to others, baptize them, make for yourself your own disciples, and send them also into the world to do the same. For a long time now I ever night at 12 AM post a daily bible verse, and other biblical sayings on my Instagram which then I share onto Twitter, Facebook & Tumbler making my righteous way as a fellow Disciple in the world to share the Gospel as God himself told man to do. I've been blessed because I've blessed others. I've met through this process so many righteous people and also so many unrighteous people. I do pray for those that are unrighteous, those that are sinners, doubters, breakers, lost in this world. But by the power in my own words and actions I've brought some of the lost, broken, sinful, doubting unrighteous people into being a righteous winner hopeful believing person into God, into the Church. I have a calling into the church. Today I met so many inspiring woman who are wife's, mothers, friends, righteous believing woman of God and they have inspired me. I look back now at what I thought I wanted and need out of people but truly I was lost, but I am found now and know what now I seek in people and in the world. Godly righteous people. I'm blessed.

The Difference between being a Fan & a Follower of someone Famous.

You know how your a fan of someone famous? Well you know who else is even more famous? Come on you do, it's #Jesus why not be his fan too? There is a difference though between being a fan and being a follower. Being a fan is just simply liking the person but following a person is doing what they did, acting how they act, living your life like them. So you must not be confused about what it means to be a fan and a follower there two totally different things. But you can apply them into being one concept you can be a fan of someone famous while also following their example, and no I am not suggesting you follow someone that leads by a bad example, use Jesus as who your a fan of as well as following his example. Or if you are a fan of someone famous like we all are but you also follow them in tree example then that means you become like them, good or bad for me I look to the people I am a fan of but also who I can follow because of their good example for instance @kellymonaco1. I am a fan of @kellymonaco1 and yes Ido follower her for her good example she leads her life by compared to other like sadly #lindseylohan.  @kellymonaco1 is a good role model that's why I am a fan but why I also followed her compared to why I don't follower #lindseylohans example because they both have made different choices you never see or hear @kellymonaco1 doing crazy stuff unlike you do with #lindseylohan. And that's why I say being a fan and following someone is two totally different things but you can apply them together if set right. So be a fan of someone that leads a life of good choices and example and follow them too. But even so they will fall at times we all do. No one is perfect so yes even those we are a fan of and follow will fall and fall again but they will get back up like we all do. Just like #Jesus did he got knocked down so many times by so many disbelievers but you know what he got back up and kept going. That's why I am a fan and follower of #Jesus because of the life and example he had set before man! He is a teacher & I am a student I obey. Now go out find someone your a fan of and follow them by their good example not the bad just like I do with @kellymonaco1 and many others. That's my message to everyone tonight being a fan and a follower of someone is totally different but can be apply together through examples. For good or bad but you want to seek the good in someone for a follower not someone that is always going to lead a life of drama bad example. Here's a list of famous people I am a fan of but also follow not because their bad but because of their good example they set in life by choices, #1. #JesusChrist #2. My Mom #3. My Great Grandmother & family #4. @kellymonaco1 #5. @_MelissaArcher #6. @Alyssa_Milano that's 6 good example. So now you go and make a list of 6+ people you are a fan of but also follow and see what the results come out to be. And if you do that you'll be good seek the good of people not the bad because bad is nothing but trouble & the good can bless you in ways. Seek and you shall find ask and you will receive good or bad your choice on what you search for in to be a fan & follower of someone. I seek the good and I find the good, I ask and I receive the good because I stay far away from the bad because I don't like bad. You can be good or you can be bad your choice but the good will always win in the end not the bad.  I hope my message to you all can help you review your lives in good and bad and everything else god bless xoxo

I am a faithful fan & follower of #JesusChrist because he is my Teacher and I am the student and so I obey his every will for me in my life

Supporting New Causes through #ClassicsForACause

Hey Everyone,

I've been supporting two wonderful causes over the last few weeks by being involved in the events hosted by #BethanyJoyLenz whom has been hosting events for #ClassicsForACause which involves Joy & Fans watching a classic film, tweeting live & donating to different causes held through #ClassicsForACause.

This was all started by Bethan Joy Lenz, it has brought many of her fans together while helping support amazing causes. This last cause we supported for Helen Keller International and raised $1,175 so far which is amazing.

I took the chance to make a official facebook supporting page for #ClassicsForACause on Facebook. If you'd like to take part in #ClassicsForACause you can follow on Twitter @ClassicCause or follow Bethany's blog at BethanyJoy.com and like the facebook page at http://www.facebook.com/classicsforacause

Get involved and give back!!

All the best,

Brittaney

#50FactsAboutMe

This I saw was trending about on Twitter so I decided I'll do a blog post over #50factsaboutme and see if I can come up with 50. So here we go.


#1. I'm from Albuquerque, New Mexico, USA
#2. I speak more than 2 languages, been learning French, German, and Spanish
#3. I'm an only child
#4. My first real concert was Backstreet Boy
#5. I was an extra in many films but the top one was Fan Boys 2006 which is where I met Kristen Bell
#6. I grew up watching Days Of Our Lives, Passions, & OLTL then on to General Hospital
#7. My first pet was my cat I named Sassy who I still have
#8. I got crabs for a birthday gift from my Grandmother one year
#9. I broke my right wrist while rollerblading in front of my house
#10. I was bit on my eye by a Chow named Ginger which lead to eye surgery
#11. I under went under major brain surgery June 1, 2010
#12. I met almost the complete cast of One Life To Live
#13. I'm a huge fanatic of Charmed, One Tree Hill, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, CSI Miami, All crime scene shows like those, Seventh Heaven, Smallville, 90's & early 2000's kids shows and many more
#14. Favorite bands from the 90's Britany Spears, Nsync, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Selena, Billy Ocean, Savage Garden, Enrique Iglesias, Mariah Carey, 98 Degrees
#15. I have had 9 surgeries total in my life although I'm suppose to have 2 other kinds of surgeries but I've been putting them off because I'm terrified of going under the knife since I had brain surgery
#16. My Aunt is four years 4 months older than I am
#17. I grew up in a single parent house hold with the help of my Grandmother
#18. I own Rats, Rabbits, Mice, Lizard, Cats, Dogs & Hamsters
#19. I have English, French , Canadian French, African American, Irish,Scottish, German, Gaelic, Panamanian, Cherokee Indian, Latina, Welsh, Jewish American-Israeli, Finnish, Dutch, Italian in me so far that I know of
#20. I'm a reborn again Christian
#21. I've been baptized three times in my life, once as a young child, once as a teen and last as a young adult
#22. I'm a descendant from Kuntz Conrad Brecht, he is my 11th Great Grandfather from Germany
#23. I published my first Poetry in 2013 Believe In me
#24. I have natural brunette curly thick hair
#25. I have to very light colored birth marks one on my middle right finger and another on my right thigh
#26. Had my first seizure & died and was revived on May 25, 2000
#27. My favorite animal is Cats
#28. I'm a fan of Justin Bieber, Selena Gomez, Miley Cyrus, Jonas Brothers
#30. I use to like Taylor Swift but now I can't stand her
#31. Top songs I listen to right now is Overcomer by Mandisa, God's Not Dead by NewsBoys, all the songs from Let It Shine, Songs by Bethany Joy Lenz, & Everly
#32. I have a God son who is in Heaven
#33. I love hats
#34. I love antiques, old vintage everything
#35. I play the Piano/Keyboard
#36. My favorite stuffed animal as a kid was a orange/white tabby cat I named Kitty who I still have
#37. I am a huge Sims world game player
#38. I've been drawing since age 2
#39. I favorite subjects in school were, Drama, Art, Psychology, English & History
#40. Worst liked subjects Math, Science, & P.E
#41. Played basketball through out middle & high school
#42. Changed my name legally by adding in the middle name Ann because my Great Grandma, Grandma & Mom has the same middle name, I wanted to carry on that name
#43. Moved to Texas at age 15 to live with my Great Grandma & Grandma
#44. Attended high school at Cypress Creek High School with Jon Cozart who is famous for his videos on YouTube channel Paint
#45. All my pets are named after people, animals from movies or TV, states of which they came, mountains, Famous people or characters from tv or movies.. they all having meaning for their names
#46. Played on the ping pong team in Highs school
#47. Was teased in school for my name being Brittaney so I was always called Britany Spears growing up
#48. I'm on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Shots, Tumblr, Youtube, Myspace
#49. I haven't seen my Father since I was 9 years old and his family since I was 8, & younger..
#50. I am the admin of Tree Hill Family, Melissa Archer Fan Site on Facebook

Hope y'all enjoy this

June First

It's Saturday morning in the Month of May.
Was waking up to what I thought was a good day.
Until a blast took place in the back of my head.
It was as if a bomb blew up and I thought oh no.
This isn't normal, blurry vision, bomb like headache, feeling sick.
I knew it couldn't be normal.

I grabbed my cell and gave my Ma' a call.
Telling her something's wrong, you need to get back here now.
I fell to my knees in tears knowing this could be it.
I pulled myself up walking to the shower and just stood in it for relief but
there was no such hope.

I was so weak, I wasn't me.
I gave in and tears cam rolling down the sides of my cheeks.
I was in so much pain, my Ma' asked do you want to go see the Doc?
I knew I needed to but I was so weak, couldn't move or walk so all
I did was stumble to the car door with the help of my Ma's hand and me leaning
on her to carry me.

I got to see the Doc, they wanted to give me a shot.
Unable to really speak I mumbled and asked where?
He said it'd be best in the buttocks.
I lifted my head with my eyes wide open with an angry pale face
and stuttered two words, Hell No, can't you give it to me in my arm?
We can it just will take longer, I say that's okay.

They go then come back and say nope it can't be done in the arm has to be done
down there. I again stutter Hell No, give me pills. They did and so I went my way.
Hours passed, no change, no relief, so out of it. My Grandmother asked had I ever felt like this
before? I nodded no, she said I bet your hemorrhaging.
You need to go to the hospital and we did, unable to walk, talk, see, function leaning
on my Ma to carry me. I collapsed, so weak, tears in my eyes and think why, God why me?

They ran many tests, had me doped up on morphine. That was finally some relief from the pain in my head. The worst felt pain was yet to come. The Doc came in looked at me with that face, you know, bad news. I wasn't expecting the words I'd hear next. My heart was racing, pounding, I was scared, nervous, knowing what may come next I needed God, I needed him then more than ever.
The words flew out of his mouth your bleeding in the brain caused by an AVM.
You'll need to have surgery because if not you'll die. We're having you air transferred to Children's Memorial Herman Hospital, my heart was then ripped from my chest!

I busted into tears, horrified my life flashed before my very eyes, seeing the good and bad I'd done,
things I may never get to do in life such as have a family, kids, my dream job, never see my loved ones again friends, family, my beloved pets and even my favorite actresses. My life leaguered between life and death. Riding in the air craft wasn't all that bad because the medics were looking fine, and had me doped up on laughing gas.

Arriving at the hospital they rolled me to the ICU where the most serious cases were. They ran more tests. Four surgeons, many nurses working as one to benefit me, that was pretty sweet. What kept me calm was the fact they were all good looking, and I had the one thing I called my best friend since I was a young child a orange/white tabby stuffed animal named Kitty and holding on to my Ma's hand tightly.

A surgeon came in and explained that there was three different surgical ways they could remove the AVM. The first going through the nasal to the back of the brain, second going through the groin of the thigh or third craniotomy going through the actual head to clip the AVM. I again fell weak and in fear yelled Hell No, I won't let you. Let's say at the time I became a bad patient.

Unable to eat or drink I was numb, pale, scared, hurt, angry. I wasn't so much angry with those that were trying to help me but more because I felt like God had left me, didn't love or care for me. I blamed him for what was happening.

Sunday a day in may just another day of tests, being poked in my hands and arms left many bruises. Was finally able to eat so I sent my mom out to get me some subway because they had to go back to the house to get stuff anyways. My Aunt stayed with me, got some ice cream sandwiches for me and her, we ate and talked. Then the unexpected happened again, I fell weak worse than before grabbing
my head and yelled get a Doc or someone please! Strong tears pored from my eyes like a river, they didn't come at first, my Aunt yelled at them and said no something is wrong come now with fear, and anger in her voice.

I was ice cold which I knew I was an inch away from death, they did a brain scan and being so weak and out of it I heard a nurse say she just might need to have surgery tonight meant it was a second bad bleed. My Ma, Grandmother came back up and my Ma tore into zillions of pieces fearing the worse for my life. She grabbed my hand and I said to her please don't get rid of my cats, I love you Mommy and the last words I said to my Aunt was work things out with Grandma.

They then rolled me back to surgery which wouldn't be my last but the first of many. Pressure of the bleed which wasn't caused by the first but second was causing the blood to drain down my spine which could make me go blind, paralyzed, comatose or die. They drilled holes into the top of my skull, placed tubes in and let the over flowing blood drain out.

Then following two more surgeries both through the groin in my thigh. Being so out of it I dreamed two dreams. The first being me laying in a hospital bed in a soap opera acting out a scene. The next was me trying to find a place to sleep while seeing different kinds of monster like things.  I even saw a familiar soul, she wasn't a person within the flesh but rather an angel. I knew who she was, I saw her. Felt nothing but love, hope, peace all those things. I waved and smiled big, no one would of expected who it was. She was my Aunt Mary who hadn't passed even a year prior. She was watching over me, the funny thing though the night she passed she came to me and touched my head way before all this. She was one of probably many angels who watched over me.

First day of June the sky was blue. Then came that day June First. I laid in preparation for surgery, being out of it but still able to hear. I heard the shaver that which was used to shave the part of my head they'd be cutting into. When it was done I was put on life support, asked them by writing in the palm of my Ma's had to restrain my wrists so I wouldn't pull out the tube. They did, being bed bound I had a catheter, my head was wrapped with white cloth. I was in and out of it for three days post op. Able to still hear, I heard my grandmother ask do you know what today is? It's grandma's birthday. They tried to show me some stuffed animals they had got me and some other stuff. A singing Chihuahua, 2 Bears one a doc & nurse that sing and a Memorial bear that sings Proud to be an American in honor of Memorial weekend because it was around that time all this took place. I didn't care I was to out of it to see it.

They soon came into test my memory by asking me all kinds of questions knowing I'd be able to answer some but not others. I struggled with it at first but got through it. It was a hazy memory after major brain surgery. Days later I was me again but a new better version of me. We were told of a girl that was 10 years that died of the same thing I had, I fell sad. I wanted to so much reach out to her family but knew I couldn't. We were also told of those with AVM's like mine don't know they have it until they are gone which is 99% of people, it can cause seizures which I had been suffering from for many years which was the likely cause by the AVM being the source. I was soon released to go home, they stitched up my inner arm with a needle and thread that will disappear on it's own over time. Came home lucky to have no major side effects from the surgery but with a little bit of memory haze and loss of eye sight in my left eye which was where the AVM was.

There isn't more than to say I'm a living breathing miracle, fighter, survivor. There was this young black boy about my age at the time who went up to my Ma and Grandmother, said I'm going to call my mom she is a pastor, I'll ask her to pray for your daughter. My Ma talked to the boys mother. My Ma stood in shock, and thought he must be an angel and even maybe my guardian angel, who would do that? I then lived to see Seventeen on June Sixteenth also the day I had the stitch's removed from my head.

Soon was home, lived to tell my story and say God is real, Miracle are real. God gave me a second chance. Believe in the almighty one and through him you shall see change, miracles be lined, feel the presents of his holy spirit and sing glory to God's holy name and his son Jesus Christ the king of kings, Father of all his children. I don't weep, I smile and sing, my king is here with me, I close my eyes and say goodnight.